I absolutely hate it when I feel like I have made the wrong decision or choice. Immediately, I ask myself “what if” I chose the other option? “What if” I decided otherwise? The “what if’s” and the “maybe’s” are as common as breathing. We all experience them frequently and always torture ourselves assuming and creating a fantasy, in our heads, of what “could of been” our reality… but I never stopped to think about that maybe… just maybe at the end of the day, despite any decisions we make, we will end up exactly where we are supposed to be.
This occurred to me as I watched my second Broadway play If/Then starting Indina Menzel at the Richard Rodgers Theatre.
I went expecting to see a story about a girl starting over in New York City and instead saw my story, a girl struggling to accept her choices and failures, stuck in past decisions. Lets just say I was a sobbing mess throughout the entire play because I related to it so much.
In my opinion, the play was absolutely amazing, from the catchy heartfelt songs to the characters on stage. It is the best feeling when you feel you have gained more than what you came with and that’s exactly how I felt, as I left the theater and waited outside to hopefully, get my Playbill signed by Indina Menzel….Well Indina never came out but I did get to meet two other actors from the play, Anthony Rapp, who was in the original cast of Rent! and the very handsome James Snyder, who I just couldn’t take my eyes off as he signed my Playbill!
James Snyder – Josh
As I sat on the train ride back home I contemplated my life choices and thought about who I am today and where I am now. I can’t do anything about the choices I missed out on and assuming and thinking of the what if’s will only hold me back and keep me in the past. So the best I can do at this point is live in the now and pray, that regardless of the choices I make, in the end I am bound to be where I need to be.